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descending into madness
The Rosencrantz to my Guildenstern
The Holmes to my Watson
The Alice to my Hatter
The Blaine to my Kurt
The Hermione to my Luna


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Guilt is a scent that permeates everything
As his musk sleeps in my skin,
In my hair,
In my clothes,
Sinks into my shuddering heart as we both wonder
When it could all fall down,
Bury us in our deceit

It’s in the dead note
as he speaks her name,
In the perverse veil of
lust and sickness
that slips over me when I hear his

Yet it is the absence of shame which makes us shameful
That unspoken knowledge that our intolerable pull
Will soon push us into bed

We weave our stories and complicate our situation
Like our limbs and our longing.
Beautiful.
Terrible.
Done.

"This isn’t an affair, it’s assistance."
He smiled
And I believed

The brightness and strict, orderly layout didn’t sit well in his gut, making him feel exposed and even more keenly aware of the chaos that was his psyche. In those walls he was a walking grimace, but the place was a necessary evil he tried to combat with thoughts of the warm jumble of knit plaids and dogs he called home.

“Right,” Jack began, stance even stiffer than usual, authoritative voice in place to match his ever-so-slightly deeper scowl. His voice came like a slap, bringing Will sharply back into focus. The earthy tones of Wolf Trap bleached away to that nauseating white with a sigh.

A Hand on the Fire

Quiet. Tranquil. Eerie.

The glow cloud, though sending an indescribable pulse of malaise through the area with its mere presence, cast a beautiful light over the city of Night Vale, brightening the sands of the harbor and tinting Carlos’ beautiful dark hair with an unearthly sheen. Despite that odd sickening feeling, Cecil smiled in the dim light and shuffled closer, breathing in deeply the mingled aroma of sage and burning plastic, his Carlos and his city, and sighed contentedly.

For once the sounds of helicopters and incomprehensible yelling were gone, leaving just the two of them, the slight whoosh of the wind, and that ever-present-and-unexplained static-like noise that ensured nobody ever felt truly alone. Perfect. It was without a doubt true perfection, this moment, and nothing else mattered.

He didn’t even think about how wonderful this story would be for his listeners tomorrow. That would’ve been remarkable to him, the absence of the thoughts he usually would’ve had had he been thinking at all about…thinking, but he was utterly blank. No work, no obligations, just simple happiness.

At last.

Hannibal/Will, puppies and flower crowns
Of c ourse you would, Curry…

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Work. To most people the word meant a nine-to-five shift, oppression and the promise of a harrowing, seemingly infinite journey through solid traffic back home. Everyone was heading in your direction, no doubt about it, pushing your hours in hell from 8 to 12 quite easily. It was horror redefined, surely. To Will Graham, usually gentle soul, it truly was a horror, being stuck in the minds of the mad on a daily basis, and generally carrying the remnants back home with him long after the day was done. While the suggestion was that you shouldn’t bring work back with you for sanity’s sake, Will had little choice in the matter; the residual thoughts of the killers he empathized with clung to his mind like ignorant hitchhikers, refusing to budge no matter how much of a guilt trip he led them on. They cared not for his precarious mental state, nor his pleas to be simply left alone.
Will’s saving grace was his dogs. No matter what, he had seven friends who adored him, seven friends who simply would not leave. He like to pretend it had nothing to do with the reliable source of food he provided. It was more of a comfort, far more touching, when he eliminated that factor from their relationship. Of late, he was beginning to realize that his relationship with Hannibal was starting to reach a significant point, not exactly akin to his bond with his dogs, but still strong enough that it was somewhat of a crutch, and that concept scared him. See, unlike the dogs -which in the back of his mind he acknowledged as damn near unbreakable so long as the food kept coming- Hannibal could take offence to something, grow bored, get offended, leave without warning. Something, someone so integral to his life already, could simply not be there in a heartbeat, and the concept was horrifying.
Still, by the way Hannibal was calling more often these days, both via telephone and in person, he was coming around to the idea that maybe, just maybe, he wasn’t about to walk out of his life any time soon. Hannibal, bless his soul, had suggested that maybe making just one more addition to his canine family, a tiny baby one at that, would do him some good. A puppy, after all, was quite different to a full sized dog, and provided a whole new set of challenges that may, in fact, be beneficial to the man with his array of problems staying grounded, sane.
And so, whether or not it truly was a good idea, Will, with Hannibal in tow, went to the local pound and returned with not one but four labradoodle puppies. Labradoodles. Even the name was ridiculous, but they were adorable, in need of a home, and very, VERY affectionate upon first meeting. Will melted and Hannibal sighed, and suddenly the car was teeming with fluffy, adorable, wriggly creatures and all their cute yappy noises. The yapping became considerably less cute the longer it went on, reaching annoying status by the time they finally arrived at Will’s humble home. Much to his credit, Hannibal remained cool and collected outwardly, even staying to help set up the home for the new additions, assist somewhat in their gentle integration to the pack, keep Will hydrated and on the ball. It wasn’t particularly late when Hannibal decided he should leave, but the state of affairs in the Graham household very definitely told him it was high time to shuffle off.
In the right hand corner of the fireplace stood a little wooden doll, a sweet depiction of a hula dancer with an oversized lei. With a bit of an oversight and three rambunctious puppies, the lei wasn’t a lei for long. It steadily went from not-so-tasty chew toy to puppy headdress, and when Hannibal and Will finally caught the yet-unnamed wearer the response was less annoyance and more incredible amusement. Even Hannibal, usually so placid and professional, let out a hearty laugh at the sight of this tiny animal bouncing around with a crown of flowers atop its head. Will took a quick cell phone snap before bending down to retrieve the garland and, in a rather daring move, place it on Hannibal’s head. It looked utterly ridiculous, of course. On the doctor it looked like a miniature flowery halo, and Will let out a quick giggle before feeling it fade out with a realization. Hannibal shockingly had a hint of a smile on his face and an honest amusement dancing behind his eyes, along with something else unplaceable. That something else is what hit Will, and before he could quite stop himself he was leaning forward to adjust Hannibal’s crown, fist curling around the flowers and hand cupping at his jaw as he leaned in and his mouth moved gingerly against Hannibal’s lips. He didn’t want to pull away, partly out of fear of what he’d see written on his friend’s face, partly because he really did not want to stop. It was such a strange balance and he knew, just knew he was overthinking things.
But Hannibal’s mouth moved with his own, dissimilar and yet perfectly aligned, and he didn’t need to pull away or feel any shame in his actions.
And he felt, with no words spoken, that he’d never have to feel ashamed again with this man.
Reconquérir Enfin - kafeiro - Hannibal (TV) [Archive of Our Own]

"See Sam and I are tracking someone, something that’s just a little more twisted than your regular, everyday psychopathic serial killer.” Though Sam shifted uncomfortably, Will mirroring him unconsciously, Hannibal remained still and looked more intrigued than disturbed.

"And what exactly would that be?" The doctor asked simply. There was a hint of a snarl that tainted Dean’s voice, rippling it’s way up his rigid form and stony face, setting his eyes ablaze with a dark fury.

"I think you know damn well what I’m on about," he growled, shifting forward ever so slightly. His gaze darted over to Will, who now looked somewhat alarmed and yet intensely focused, possibly trying to gauge just what sort of a man this Dean Winchester was. "There’s a wendigo on the loose in these parts, a vicious, possessive, ruthless killer who just happens to be hitching a ride on one of the local nasty sons-of-bitches in order to do some real damage and get a decent meal. Or six." His disgust in the idea was made painfully clear as he shook his head and swallowed with a slight grimace. To his side, Sam winced.

Hannibal’s face remained the cool mask it always was, but something flared up in his eyes, a warning that both brothers would almost certainly just dismiss. It was interesting to them that his reaction was utterly devoid of anger or panic. Instead the mask warped into a parody of concern.

"Perhaps you require my assistance? Maybe it would be best if you talked to me about this "wendigo", why you’re so sure it’s behind the murders here…"

Title: Reconquérir Enfin
Fandom: Hannibal (NBC)
Rating: PG
Length: 2,124
Summary: Alana Bloom holds out hope for Will’s release. Will holds onto hopelessness like a shock blanket. Promises are kept, failed, and followed through.
Warnings: Multiple mentions of death.
Notes: Not a happy one and certainly nothing I believe will happen in the show, nothing I’d want to happen in the show either. Just a little thing that popped into my head on the walk to work yesterday that I finally got to work on just before work today. If I’ve done my job, I’m sure several people will hate me. Bonus points to anyone who picks up on the little references here and there.

 

The investigation would take a few months at least. It was to be incredibly thorough, not just due to the gravity and gruesome nature of the string of crimes it surrounded but because it centered around someone they had considered one of their own, lending a very personal spin on things. They began by tearing apart Will’s house, his sanctuary, completely and mercilessly, analyzing the shards, shreds and threads of what was once a life. The analysts looked for the truth in every detail, and their results would be analyzed by a senior team, and theirs by a more senior team, and theirs, and theirs, until somebody was satisfied and a conclusion was reached.

The investigation would take a few months at least.

And it was going to hurt like hell.

 

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He was trembling just slightly, fists clenched and looking both like  a petulant child and a very worried man indeed. His eyes never remained fixed on his friend nor his enemy, though they certainly seemed to linger far longer on the first. Nothing was said, but John’s face softened as he nodded, and that was all Sherlock needed.

“Are you alright? John, are you okay?”

Breathe you in.
My fascination, your unnatural draw,
Base, raw, feverish, manic.

My blood sings as you draw closer,
Piecing together the mystery of

Me.

Cleansing and purging,
Unraveling your mind
And preening you for greater purpose.
You have come the closest

To the divine,
To the darkness,
The perfect, primal union
Of our own creation.

Will Graham was seething with a fury not entirely his own.

"You," he said simply, almost perfectly flat save for that hint of a restrained, purely animalistic growl threatening along the edges. Hannibal, composed and curious as always, remained silent, motionless. “All this time. You.” The venom finally seeped in, mingling with a notable crack of betrayal making it seem almost as though Will was finding it as hard to breathe as he was struggling to comprehend and digest this revelation. “And you turned everyone against me to- to save your skin…”

"Not quite, Will."

The use of his name stung, and if Hannibal realized this he betrayed none of it on his face. He never did. His eyes were unfathomable, his face unreadable. He was a calm mask studying the continued undoing of the man before him.

Over the years Castiel could be likened to many things, mainly baby forms of anything, innocent and endearing, an untarnished desire to learn and explore, that childish need to please. It was sort of funny, looking back, that this being behind the man that was built to be a weapon, an unfeeling and blindly obedient warrior, had become this. Sam leaned back in his chair, ignoring its groans of protest, and laughed, smile remaining as he raised the bottle to his lips again. Across from him, Castiel’s mouth quirked at the corner as he mimicked the action, catching Sam’s eyes through heavy lids.

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Time Does Not Bring Relief - A John Watson snippet

He couldn’t remember life before that dull ache. It was ever-present - a heaviness in his chest, a tightness in his throat, a sickness in his stomach - and it was unbearable, infecting everything. He couldn’t remember how it felt to genuinely smile, or laugh. He’d all but forgotten anger and frustration. It had reached the point where feeling was apparently not something that came to him naturally any longer, merely something he could catch glimpses of in memory. draw out once in a while if he concentrated particularly hard. Everything but that ache was completely and utterly numb.

 

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My goal for today, now that Christmas baking is…60% complete, is to get chapter 5 finished and uploaded.

After months.

Because oh my god

I’ve missed writing and I actually have breathing space.

But not really.

There was something about nature that fascinated Sherlock on a completely different level, underneath the deduction, the hyper-analyses, the constant figuring and processing and whirring in his brain.

It was pretty.

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